Diary of a Mad Intern

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

is this what it means to "click" with someone?

being an "independent" woman all my life, i have always seen it as somehow important to speak up for myself, voice my own opinion, let my feelings be known. i have never understood the idea of "deferring" to a man, and i struggle with the idea of man and woman "surrendering" to one another that paul goes on about in his epistles.

but i am starting to think that it might simply be a matter of never having yet met a man that i felt i could enter into that sort of a dynamic with...

see, for the first time, there i a man posting here whose words are not only smart, wise and insightful; but with whom i agree, and in whose ideas i can take comfort - and as strange as this sounds.... someone that i can finally rely on to say something that makes sense and is interesting, meaningful, Godly and comforting - someone that seems to have completely relieved me of the feeling that i have to jump up and down with some yippy and unecessary commentary to add to his thoughts.

i look at this man's ideas (and not just here - i am the very happy recipient of many lovely emails, and a happy partner in many an hour-long phone conversation) and i think "fair enough. i couldn't have said it better myself". on the other site, where he entered into a discussion with a wonderful and fiercely intelligent friend called "sparrow", i realized that while my beloved sparrow had raised some brilliant talking points, i had no need to wade into the discussion because bruce already had the conversation well in hand, and i trusted that he would handle the it in an intelligent, respectful and thoughtful manner, leaving me to pursue other ideas.

the growing sense of being part of what may shape up to be an amazing team is unlike anything that's come before.

and i will candidly admit i am not sure where my point is going, so i will simply ask - does anyone else know what the heck i am talking about? '-D

Sunday, August 27, 2006

NOT to be confused with a mike myers character...

"fat baptists"

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Islam: A Religion of Peace?

(thank you, james, for the link)


Interpreting the words of Muslim scripture so that they pose no threat to peaceful coexistence with non-believers is a large challenge.



The problem of Muslim radicalization has been on the agenda of all nations since 9/11. But Canada faces a unique dilemma because the doctrine of multiculturalism is seen as intrinsic to our national identity. The [June 2006] disruption of an alleged homegrown Islamist terror plot has caused many Canadians to ask: How can multiculturalism—which preaches tolerance above all else—be squared with a militant, intolerant creed that demonizes non-believers? [Here] … Gordon Nickel examines the claim that Islam is inherently a "religion of peace."

Since the London bombings of 7/7, there has been a renewed effort among Muslims in the West to present Islam as a religion of peace. This has come in response to persistent probing of the relationship between Islam and violence. Here in Canada, this issue leapt to the front pages following news that all 17 suspects in an alleged Ontario-based terror plot are Muslim.

The Koran contains five commands to kill and 12 commands to fight …

For some Muslims, the rise of homegrown terror has meant an interest in re-examining the foundational texts that extremists have used to justify their attacks—the Koran, the Hadith (traditions of what the prophet of Islam said and did), the Sira (earliest biography of the prophet), and works of Fiqh (Islamic jurisprudence). Some are challenging classical interpretations of these texts that have held sway for centuries.

When the Koran is cited by Muslims in response to questions about violence, it is often discussed in such a way as to shut down a meaningful exploration of the text. One or two mild passages are usually offered, as if these fully represented the contents of a scripture containing 6,000-plus verses. But the Koran—literally "recitation"—is a collection of diverse materials that include polemic, praise, eschatology, law, narrative, battle calls, and details of the domestic life of the prophet.

In particular, the sourcebooks contain a great deal of material relating to violence. This article reviews that small part of the material that is directly relevant to any debate about the link between Islam and terror: the commands to fight and kill.

The Koran contains five commands to kill and 12 commands to fight (literally, "try to kill"). Most are found in the second (verses 190, 191, 193, 244), fourth (vv. 76, 84, 89, 91) and ninth (vv. 5, 12, 14, 29, 36, 123) suras.

The commands address a number of different situations, from "fighting those who fight you" to "fighting totally." The objects of the fighting and killing include the unbelievers, the "associators" (mushrikin, or polytheists) and "the friends of Satan."

In classical Muslim discussions of these verses, two verses attracted more attention than any others. They came to be known as "the sword verse" (9.5) and "the verse of tribute" (9.29).

The verse of tribute concerns the "people of the book"—generally understood by Muslims to be faith communities possessing a scripture, especially Jews and Christians. The command is to fight those who have been given the book "until they pay the tribute (jizya) out of hand and have been humbled." The command in the sword verse is to "kill the associators (mushrikin) wherever you find them, and take them, and confine them, and lie in wait for them at every place of ambush." At face value, therefore, polytheists appear to be at greater risk than Jews or Christians.

The Arabic verb in all of these verses is not the verb related to jihad. Rather, it is the verb qatala in its first ("to kill") and third ("to fight, try to kill") forms. The Koran contains many other verses using forms of qatala which—though not imperatives—appear to encourage fighting or killing. Among these is 61.4: "Allah loves those who fight in his way."

These are the commands. But what do they mean? That is, of course, a matter of interpretation. Those who want to give a peaceful interpretation to these verses face challenges from both the classical medieval Muslim consensus and the interpretations of popular figures within the 20th-century Islamic revival.

Muslim scholars have produced lively commentaries (tafsir) on the verses of the Koran from the second Islamic century up to the present. The earliest complete commentary on the Koran was written by Muqatil ibn Sulayman (d. 767). Muqatil seems to take the commands to fight and kill at face value.

One of the interpretive principles that Muqatil and later commentators used was to link passages in the Koran with events in the story of Muhammad, the prophet of Islam. These events are arranged in a continuous narrative in the Sirat Rasul Allah of Ibn Ishaq (d. 767).


Muslim scholars assigned each of the Koran's 114 suras to initial recitation by Muhammad in either Mecca or Medina; and within those main divisions, they gave each sura a place in a definite chronology. The establishment of such a chronology permitted the concept of abrogation—by which recitations originating later in time took precedence over apparently contradictory passages recited earlier.

The classical Muslim understanding that developed from these principles was that the commands to fight and kill could be arranged chronologically in the prophet's lifetime—from the initial permission Muhammad gave to his followers to fight, to instructions on defensive warfare, to conditional aggression, to open unrestricted warfare as the prophet's forces grew stronger later in his life. Peaceful passages in the Koran were considered to be superseded by materials with a warlike tone, especially Sura 9.

David S. Powers, professor of near eastern studies at Cornell University, has noted that Muslim scholars of abrogation such as Ibn Salama (d. 1020) claimed the "sword verse" cited above (9.5) had abrogating power over 124 other verses, including "every other verse in the Koran which commands or implies anything less than a total offensive against the non-believers." U.S.-born historian John Wansbrough found that the sword verse "became the scriptural prop of a formulation designed to cover any and all situations which might arise between the Muslim community and its enemies." Influential Islamist authors such as 'Abd al-Salam Faraj, Maulana Maududi and Sayyid Qutb have all expressed their agreement with the classical interpretation of the commands to fight and kill.

A famous illustration of this Islamist tendency is in the pre-9/11 communiqués of Osama bin Laden. His "Declaration of War" of October, 1996, makes prominent use of Koranic commands to fight and kill. His Jihad Against Jews and Crusaders of February, 1998, opens with the sword verse and applies it directly to those he considers to be the modern enemies of Islam.

Indeed, one of the greatest challenges facing peace advocates in Muslim nations is that the Islamist voices that seem to have the greatest appeal to youth are those that portray the Koranic commands to kill as clear and unequivocal. Some of these Islamists have already carefully processed Western criticisms and have deliberately reasserted the classical understandings. For instance, Egypt's Sayyid Qutb, a guiding force of the Muslim Brotherhood (from which al-Qaeda sprang), wrote that the tendency to interpret the Koran as if it enjoins only defensive war is an error of Muslims' minds "defeated by the pressure of unfavorable conditions and the treacherous propaganda of the orientalists."

But this need not be the only way of interpreting these texts. One alternative—quite common in some faith communities—might be to decide that these were commands for a very particular set of circumstances, but that they no longer apply to modern believers in this time. Another option, advanced recently by the Turkish scholar Israfil Balci, is to reject the classical interpretations of these commands as a product of the political tensions of the period.

Muslims are not the only scriptural community to face challenges of interpretation. Jews and Christians who regard the Hebrew Scriptures as the Word of God must deal with the conquest of Canaan, the commandment of total cherem destruction, the violence of judges like Samson and the bloodshed of kings like David—among many other materials that suggest godly approval for aggressive warfare against non-believers.

Conversely, warring Christians who accept the authority of the Gospel must deal with the apparent prohibition of violence in the teachings and life example of Jesus. This discussion has been going on among Christians at least since the Crusades, when critics were heard to say "that it is not in accordance with the Christian religion to shed blood in this way, even that of wicked infidels. For Christ did not act thus."

Within the Christian community, one interpretive option is to read the Hebrew Scriptures through the prism of the Gospel. According to the Gospel, Jesus said that He had come not to abrogate the law and the prophets, but to fulfill them. Jesus then immediately replaced the law of retaliation with non-resistance, and commanded love for enemies (see Matthew 5:17, 38, 39, 44). This way of dealing with difficult materials raises many questions, but it has allowed Christians to pursue pacifism while holding to the authority of the Hebrew Scriptures.

Unfortunately, the Islamic principle of abrogation runs in the opposite chronological direction in relation to violence. Because the commands to fight and kill in the Koran are considered by Muslims to be among the recitations made very late in the life of the prophet of Islam—at a time when his conquest of Arabia was almost complete—Muslims scholars have been inclined to read the peaceful texts as subordinate to the later ones.

In other words, Muslims seeking to find a peaceful message in the Koran must fight not only the plain meaning of the Koran's text and the current fashion for militancy, but also the arrow of Muslim history.

Interpreting the words of Muslim scripture so that they pose no threat to peaceful coexistence with non-believers thus seems a large challenge. In view of the high stakes in the world today, however, it is certainly a challenge worth taking up. Otherwise, Canadian proponents of multiculturalism will have a harder time arguing that traditional Islam is just another peaceful element in Canada's multicultural quilt.

Gordon Nickel has a PhD in the earliest commentaries on the Koran and teaches at the Acts Seminaries, Langley, B.C.

Originally published in the National Post, June 13, 2006.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

lost and found

a passing acquaintance and i were having a conversation about "men's spirituality", and the fact that in the modern world, and particularly in the christian paradigm - which lacks any sort of ritual that marks the transition point between childhood and manhood - men seem to have lost something critical. some basic component of their masculine identity has been laid by the wayside for reasons i can only guess at (and no doubt guess wrong) and i think that both men and women are the worse for it.

i like to think i am "in touch" with my femininity. granted, i have a very "male" outlook on the world (i am spiritually and politically conservative, i love science fiction and am called to traditionally male-oriented jobs), but i am also very happy being a "nurturer": i cook, i clean, i do laundry, i will run and fetch things for the person i love, take care of children, and move heaven and earth to secure a loved one a lazy sunday in bed. in no way do i feel that those tendencies compromise me as an individual in any way.

by the same token, i realize that more and more what i look for in a man are more "traditional" masculine traits: courage, forthrightness, candor, a fiercely protective nature, and yes, as unpopular as it may be to say, a measure of aggressiveness, combined with an enlightened and spiritual outlook on life. never having found those traits in men i have dated in the past (which naturally makes me question what it was i was looking for in a man), i was coming to despair of the fact that such a creature even existed.

now, i am not looking for the testosterone-fueled caveman that eats with his hands and beats his woman; but rather a man that is bold, courageous, willing to take chances, self-aware, gainfully employed, sensuous, artistic, a good provider and strong leader; a man who is powerful in many and diverse ways. but the older i get, and the more i become involved with men nearing or immersed in middle age, the more i realize how many of them have given up on their basic, masculine instincts simply to survive.

for better or for worse, i am a woman with more than two brain cells, and brain cells that occassionally bang together, and i have been told be several men that they find that
intimidating. now, invariably it is intelligent men that tell me this (which makes it doubly disheartening and slightly ridiculous); so imagine my delight to meet a man that told me (no doubt with a twinkle in his eye) "oh i am not intimidated. i'm a big boy, i can take it..."

i am also someone, who by circumstance, can only become involved at this time in a long distance relationship. now, while that state of affairs is only temporary, (in my view) it affords two individuals the opportunity to thoroughly connect as people before the immediacy of physical intimacy becomes and issue. several men, again, have told me very politely that for differing reasons, they choose not to get involved with anyone they cannot poke in the ribs; so imagine my delight to meet a man that is unafraid to let himself be known as a spirit first and a body second; who is willing to flex that masculine courage and take a chance on letting someone really get to know him for who he is, first and foremost. it takes a ridiculous amount of courage for a man to let a woman get to know him as a person without that safety net of physicality to fall back on...

but faith and courage go hand in hand. being a Christian is just about the scariest, toughest thing anyone can do. having faith in the Lord, while invariably the right thing to do, is so much "easier said than done". imagine my delight to find someone that lives that faith out loud: that can look at a questionable situation, see the potential, and place his courage not only in God, but also in his God-given ability to manage a challenging situation and to turn it to his own advantage. it is devastatingly attractive to find a man that sees what he wants, and despite the apparent obstacles, lets nothing stand in his way...

now, take someone with those strong, sexy masculine traits, and make him a musician, a father, a poet and a spiritual warrior.

is it any wonder i am starting to feel like the luckiest woman on earth.......?

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

dear prayer warriors...

and you know who you are...

THANK YOU for your care and support, and love and prayers at this time.

i decided to post this here in case any visitors might wish to have a word with the Big Guy about margot and her family. for those of you i haven't contacted directly, here is the story:

margot (my best friend in the world, who lives in new zealand) is about to lose her father. he has been diagnosed with a brain tumour, and it all came on terribly suddenly.

here is her latest note:

We've had the 'family meeting' and here are our options: leave everything as is and he'll have up to 2 months, and be in constant pain and discomfort.
Or have a debulking (scooping out what tumour they can) and radiotherapy for 5 weeks then he gets another 10 months (ish).
Dad wants the latter option.
He's much better today, speaking relatively normally and walking a bit. Exhausted by all the visitors; every Hungarian in CHCH thinks they are 'family', so the nurses have given me the hard word to restrict visitors drasticaly.
Anyway, I have to go up now.
Thanks for all your calls and support. They mean a lot to me and dad hears about them too

if you are so inclined, please take a moment to pray for them; and to those of you that have already been praying - please accept my heartfelt thanks.

i will keep you all posted......

Monday, August 21, 2006

many thanks to stuart..

... for the "verse of the day" link up top there!

XXXOOO

Friday, August 18, 2006

from a very dear friend in brisbane

(aren't they all?)

oz_brooster and i were having a wonderful conversation on the phone that ranged far and wide, but he shared a precious thought with me about the unbelievable freedom that comes that comes from surrendering yourself to God's will that really caught at my heart...

he said :"The One who will Surrender to the Compass, has the Freedom of the Seas".

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Monday, August 14, 2006

faith in God is NEVER a mistake!

i would like to thank each and every one of you that so kindly and graciously were praying for me this weekend. your prayers (and mine) were answered, and yet again i have been shown in no uncertain terms that prayer and faith in God is NEVER misplaced.

thank you all for being there. i will keep you posted on the good news going forward!

Sunday, August 06, 2006

the relentless inevitability of Jesus...

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i have had this tattoo since i was a 19-year-old wayward witch.

at the time, i had it carved into my flesh to symbolize what i felt was my undying devotion to the pagan gods of old; pan, the god of music, in particular. at the time, i thought i would be a witch forever.

funny how the meaning of "forever" changes as you mature......

and to be honest, in a juvenile, rebellious, counter-culture sort of way, i enjoyed snottily explaining to the "hoi polloi" that it was NOT a symbol of the devil thankyouverymuch; we witches did NOT worship satan!

thankfully, God is relentless in His love; He is inevitable in reclaiming His beloved creations.

He found me.

for a time i toyed with the idea of having the tattoo removed, but the technology to do so was imperfect and expensive. besides, it seemed deceitful, like i was trying to rewrite the past, and that just seemed wrong. i am not one to shy away from her mistakes: i face them, accept them, move forward.

for years, though, in the church, my tattoo raised eyebrows (and sadly, the fact that so many churches in toronto lack airconditioning made attending in a sleeveless top an inevitability). but i kept it as a symbol: as a reminder to myself that there was a time that i hadn't known the Truth; that i had not lived in the light and the love of Jesus Christ; that i had been a slave to sin and the darkeness....

foolishly, i thought THAT was my great "learning".

time and time again i hear from people who have been "de-churched" that they were driven out by the whispers, the judgemental gossip, the denigrating eyebrows, the clucking tongues. all the things my tattoo invited...

perhaps i haven't been subject to it long enough to it for it to bother me (oh wait - i was a jew AND a pagan! we wrote the book on nasty whispers, the judgemental gossip, denigrating eyebrows and clucking tongues). perhaps i am a more resilient person; perhaps being trained for ministry has simply ingrained in me a different perspective on the social dynamic in church. i don't know, but the superficial dissaproval never bothered me. indeed, i found it an effective tool for evangelism.

the comment was fairly standard: "oh my, do you think it's appropriate for you to be showing that in church??". the comment would come from the midst of a small group of congregants (because no one ever wants to be unpleasant without backup), and was accompanied by an upturn of an eyebrow, and a downturn of the mouth.

and so, because i have learned that there is no greater way to diffuse harsh feelings than with a hug and a laugh, each comment of this nature greeted with a hug and a laugh.

"its funny" i'd reply, "and an odd sort of thing for someone to show off, i agree, but you know what? i wear it with pride. this tattoo is my reminder of Christ's love, and His infinite mercy, and a testament to the fact that even a hopeless, worthless sinner like me might find a home in a church as wonderful as this. did i mention what a marvellous job you did this week with the flowers, olivia?"

the joy of such a rebuttal is that no matter how devout or secular you are, you simply can't argue with it.

and so it went for years: my tattoo would draw sneers and jeers, i'd explain its significance as a reminder of Christ's love for me, and sisters and brothers in Christ would be brought into a shared spiritual experience, their opinions respected, the peace restored.

and then, last year, "the lion the witch and the wardrobe" was released in theaters.

now, children come rushing forward to trace the outline of my tattoo, or in more vigorous cases, to pound the living daylights out of my arm crying out "mr. tumnes! mr. tumnes!"

the pagan god pan has become a christian icon.

and yet again, i was blessed with an epiphany: the apocalypse of annie, as it were.

Christ is inevitable, relentless. And let us bless and praise His name for that!

many people are disappointed that God doesn't seem to be working obvious miracles in the world anymore: there are no pillars of fire in the desert, no parting of any seas, no more prophets being slain by the hundreds. they see christianity being beaten back, stepped on, repressed. they think God is losing....

they are wrong.

those people might be missing the tiny, silent miracles that God is working in the world today. little miracles, like making a symbol of pagan identity a hallmark of christian piety. while we are all looking for vast, globe-spanning miracles, God - the master of the universe - is showing us that He is the master of time and history, changing 4000 years of meaning in a matter of months.

our God truly is an amazing God.

Amen.

and we're done.......

THE CHURCH OF THE RESURRECTION

1100 WOODBINE AVENUE

TORONTO, ONTARIO M4C 4C7

MINISTRY INTERN - ANDREA BROSGALL - FINAL REPORT

Andrea Brosgall was Ministry Intern at the Church of the Resurrection from May 2006 to July 2006. During that time she preached four times, led worship, continued an “Out-to Lunch” ministry (gathering people at a local eatery after church) that she had begun here as a theological student, coordinated our Cool School (summer Sunday School which is to extend into August in her absence), picked up pastoral duties as those arose, assisted me with two funerals and a recommitment of marital vows on the occasion of a 50th Wedding Anniversary and, of course, participated in ongoing theological reflection and supervision. Her project was the coordinating a one week summer Day Camp programme for 60 children.

This was done observing the required 50 hours per week while she worked bi-vocationally a “secular” position full time job to pay her bills: quite a feat in and of itself.

STRENGTHS

Andrea performed all her tasks with enthusiasm and mostly at her own initiative. She continued to mature in her deep Christian commitment and love of the task of ministry. In preaching she is strong in personal story, the art of writing, humour, delivery and is growing in her expository work. She leads worship with an air of confidence and comfort. She juggled several sensitive pastoral relationships well – like a pro. Although Day Camp was a totally new experience for her, Andrea enlisted the help of a host of people with previous experience and managed to lead us through the “hot” week with a cool heart. In fact, she seemed without exception to be unflappable, confident that the people and the system set into motion would be up to the task – which it was. She is growing in her understanding of the complexity of parish life and the unique challenges of pastoral ministry. The parish also developed a warm heart for Andrea. During the Day Camp she grew in her love of children’s ministries.

GROWTH AREAS

Andrea needs master Anglican disciplines: Prayer Books, lectionary, liturgy, and structures. Exposure also to higher more disciplined forms of Anglicanism would better prepare her for clerical life. Such is her passion for ministry that she needs to develop better boundaries between pastoral relationships and personal friendship. One case remains unresolved because the necessary confrontation was more difficult to schedule than personal interaction. She was to have arranged substitutes through August in one aspect of her work for after her internship had finished, but chose to do the work herself for some weeks. Growth in recruiting, delegating, and letting go are needed

SUPERVISORY RELATIONSHIP

Few are as gifted with such a strong learning spirit as she, which made supervision a joy. She brought a refreshing eagerness to the learning task, grilling anyone in a position to teach with relevant questions. We seemed to work well together as a team. She taught me the need to better assess student’s needs early on. I would be pleased to work with her as student again and commend her on her path towards ordination.

The Rev. Duke Vipperman+

Incumbent, Church of the Resurrection

416-425-8383, 416-698-6097, duke.vipperman@sympatico.ca

Final Report

Intern’s Final Report

a. Learning Goals

Goal: delegation, facilitation, discipleship and volunteer recruitment and development

Implementation: Cool School; Day Camp

a) I can encourage, disciple, train and empower another person to take on a role they never thought they could. I can foster in someone a sense of "hey I can do this", and the confidence to take on a leadership role of their own.

b) Please see final day camp report for specifics of volunteer recruitment

Goal: developing a personal theology/philosophy/theory of ministry based on real-world experience

Implementation: supervision, teaching, self-reflection, and reading

Result:

My current understanding personal theology/philosophy/theory of ministry based on real-world experience is best summed up in the servant-leader theories of Robert Greenleaf:

  • devote themselves to serving the needs of organization members.
  • focus on meeting the needs of those they lead.
  • develop employees to bring out the best in them.
  • coach others and encourage their self expression.
  • facilitate personal growth in all who work with them.
  • listen and build a sense of community.

Goal: to develop a sustainable and expandable method and methodology of ministry

Implementation: supervision, teaching, self-reflection, scheduling and journaling

Result:

I have discovered through this process that the key to a sustainable and expandable method and methodology of ministry is facilitation and delegation: to create and manage self-sustaining systems so that energies can be directed elsewhere. Major potential pitfalls: “making it look too easy”.

Goal: to learn how to mark the deepening of faith/relationship to God of others who are being transformed by Christ at work through my own ministry

Implementation: observation, supervision, self-reflection, and journaling

Result:


a) I have learned that I can help foster friendships and connections between other people. I can facilitate introductions, engage the parties in interesting conversation then gracefully withdraw, only to return in a few days to both parties to help foster and support the connection between them.

b) I can make people feel connected to a broader community - I can make them feel valued and included, needed and accepted, to the benefit of the greater whole. No matter what the personality type, I seem to be able to find a niche in any community where they will fit, feel valued and be a positive contributor to the whole.

c) I am as comfortable ministering to an elderly person in a nursing home as I am ministering to a 12-year-old girl.


Goal: coping with the demands of bi-vocational ministry

Implementation: observation/self-reflection on my experiences in balancing the demands of ‘secular’ employment and the fulfillment of the expectations of the internship

Result:

While by no means is it my preferred method to balance two full time jobs, I found ultimately that, due to the fact I was focusing “delegation” as a learning goal, I found myself with much less “leg work” to do than expected, making the balancing of the two imperatives manageable. I found that in the rare but inevitable moments when competing imperatives collided, it was my secular job that I made secondary to my deliverables in the Church. Physical fatigue was the only noticeable side effect – emotional and spiritual fatigue was not.

b. Work expectations

Worship/liturgy (specify the services the intern is expected to participate in)

To be in attendance/lead both Sunday services and at least on ‘special’ service (baptism, funeral, feast-day etc)

Result:

Expectations met.

Administration: via facilitation of deliverables

Preaching: preaching minimum 3 times throughout duration of internship (more possible)

Sermon types: 3 “biggies”/ homilies/funeral

Help develop preaching series

Result:

Expectations met.

Group Work: to facilitate and oversee cool school (Sunday morning in the summers for children)/ Day Camp

Outreach: Evangelism and community involvement

Day Camp – invitation and publicity

Result:

Expectations met. Please see day camp final report for details.

Visiting: 4 personal and 2 “phone visits” each week

Result:

Expectations met.

Special Project: Day Camp

Result

As above: Expectations met.

Others: to be negotiated

c. Particulars of Internship

1. Overall Arrangements

Duration of Internship: 3 months: may 01 2006 until aug. 01 2006.

Unsupervised Period: June 2006

Mid-Term break: June 26-28 2006

Welcome: may 07 2006

Goodbye: last Sunday in July

Accommodation: none

Work Station: flexible. Require Ethernet connection and filing cabinet

Travel Allowance: .92/km

2. Weekly Routine

Daily Start Time: 9am or earlier

Result:

Expectations met.

Daily Devotions: 9am – Andrea to lead staff devotions.

Result:

Expectations met.

Weekly Reports: due Monday before supervisory meetings

Staff Meeting: Wednesdays 10am

Result:

Expectations met.

Day off: Tuesdays

Result:

Expectations not always met. Focusing on preserving the “day off” is an ongoing learning goal.

d. Program Requirements: day-to-day pastoral presence in parish

· Administrating worship

· Orientation to the parish

· Multi-media theory

· Bi-vocational

· Funerals

· Prioritizing visitations

· Outreach/day camp

· Baptismal instruction

1. Weekly

Supervisory Hour: Wednesdays 11am

Teaching Session: Wed or Sat am

Evaluation: after day camp (Aug 02)

Verbatim: 2 due: one by may 14; possibility of doing one via msn messenger (or equivalent)

Supervisor’s expectations for written work (typed/ written, point-form/prose, deadlines etc)

Items due 2 days before supervisory time; sermon/ verbatim as assigned. Point form for reports

1. Overall

Midterm Report: May 15

Mid Term Visit with co-ordinator: Mid June

Final Report: Aug 02

Solo Report: 1st week of July

Special Project Report: Aug 02

Verbatim/ Pastoral Incident Report:

May 15-30

July 3-23

Final Evaluation Arrangements: Aug 02; after meeting with support team

e. Modes of Communication:

staff/personal meetings

email

phone

Ways to revisit this covenant: supervisor’s hour

We have come to these agreements after a process of prayerful discussion, and we pledge ourselves to keep faith with each other in our mutual growth in ministry for God’s work.

Signed:

Andrea Brosgall ______________________________

Aug 01, 2006

Friday, August 04, 2006

how quickly pivots the world...

i have just been given the opportunity to return to brisbane next year for school. its incredibly tempting...

someone that i wanted to become much closer to in brisbane sent me this in reply to my suggestion the he run off with me: I am overwhelmingly convinced that you, as a beautiful woman, have overt and secret admirers a’plenty. Explore them.

well, i know a polite brush-off when i hear it, and that's fine. i am a big girl - i can take it. but it doesn't change the fact that something profound and life changing has occurred over the course of the last few months, and i have four men to thank for it:

jon pointed out (and i posted it previously here) that the march of time is relentless. if you don't seize your dreams when you have the chance, they will slip irrecoverably through your fingers.

two men in their forties have shown me that in no uncertain terms by the way they live their own lives. i have watched them let so many chances at happiness slip through their fingers. i have listened to them whinge and moan about how they always end up "the losers", never once for a moment clueing in to the fact that their misery is a result of their choosing to be one of "life's passengers", as chris calls them.

and then there is chris: he is in his sixties, and has finally realized that when you have a chance at love - or any kind of happiness - you grab it, hold onto it, nurture it, never put it off because it isn't the flawless pearl you'd once dreamed of. he has realized that as you get older, there are fewer and fewer opportunities for joy - and that if God miraculously gives you a chance, TAKE IT. don't wait to see if there might be something more perfect around the next corner.

chris is how i want to live my life. there will be obstacles; they can be overcome. there will be mistakes made; they can be rectified. it will not be perfect; i never asked for perfect.

so i am going to brisbane, for no other reason than i want to: there is no special man there waiting for me, no great human love affair to be consumated. i am going simply as a student, to study and work, to hang out with friends i have been too long separated from, to see the country, to meet people in the church and to make contacts there so that when i do immigrate permanently, job applications will not be met with a puzzled "who is this person?"

for many years, caring for my mum has forced me to be "one of life's passengers", but the older i get the more soul-destroying that becomes. so, i will find a way to both care for a wonderful mother, and still live my own life on my own terms while i am still young enough to enjoy it.

right. manifesto done. convoy, HO!

now, what to do about that "complication" in new zealand, i ask you all? :)



Tuesday, August 01, 2006

oh my... how embarassing

a gentleman acquaintance in australia offered to marry me last night, so that i could obtain a visa for the purposes of immigrating, and i realized that must have made (and continue to make) a terrible gaffe.

i seem to have given him the impression that i am seeking a partner in australia to assist me in the immigration process. nothing could be further from the truth. i am quite happy to - and capable of - handling the immigration process on my own, and should there be a second party involved in my immigrating, it will be the church.

i am seeking a partner in australia because that is where i will be emigrating to anyway - and the distance and separation will give us a chance to cultivate a meaningful friendship and real love based on knowing who the other person really IS (without the distraction of immediate physical gratification, which historically has resulted in my ending up with very sexy jerks). that is something that only comes with time.

if true love blossoms, a partner in australia can shorten the time that immigrating on my own will take, but i most definately am not interested in a partner in oz for the purpose of immigration....

i think i really must be more clear on that point in future......